Daddy dearest.

I love my dad. Even though we don't always see eye to eye. Maybe because we are so much alike. Scary thought especially if you know my dad (Homer Simpson minus the Alcohol) But he has been so great to me and I know that he loves me. I also know I am a pain living at home. lol I told him I was looking at apartments and then I didn't get the one I applied for. He said that he was so upset that I was planning on leaving. He didn't want me or the girls to leave. He would be so sad even though it was only about 5 mins away. lol I never thought I would hear that out of my dad.

So I am in the proccess of going back to school tobecome a high school teacher. Still not for sure the subject. But I want to teach high school. I found there is a loan/scholarship program that if you agree to work in a low income school after you graduate they will pay for your school. I was telling my dad about it. He said "there is lots of schools around ogden area I am sure that will qualify, but I bet somewhere like Eureka would too. (Eureka=way small hick town) You can move there and meet some hot cowboy." I moved from a small town that I hated!! Haven't hardly been back since. Not a big fan of cowboys. And thats the future my dad picks out for me gee thanks dad

Single Moms

I have total respect for single moms out there it is not easy by all means.
I am very lucky to have such a great family to help me!!! I don't know where I would be with out them.
I am not a fan of divorce so many people get divorce today, and not even really try to work out their problems. But trust me, I am not one of those. I stayed to long, but have come to realize why I stayed. I did try everything in my power to work it out, but I can't have a marriage with myself. But I stayed and stayed, because I have two kids with him.
After moving back to Tooele. I started working (even though I always wanted to be a stay at home mom like my mom) that just wasn't in the plan for me. I met the most incredible people to help me see that it is going to be hard to be a single mom, but it is so worth being happy for me and my kids. And that it is possible to succeed as a single mom. I appreciate them (Shelly and Vicki) They have taught me so much and helped me out!! I am know that I got that job for a reason. I since moved back home with my parents, so Ican go back to school. So I can make it out on my own soon. I am by no means back on my feet. That's going to take a while, but I am on the road to recovery. I am very stubborn I don't like to ask for help, but I have learned that it's important too. There are so many people out there that want you to succeed and that it is ok to ask for help as long as you are working to better yourself. (I am not ok with those on state welfare looking to stay on it forever)
I have discovered so many resources out there that are great help. I am even learning to coupon for diapers because they are so expensive. I don't know how anyone can afford them.
But I am so grateful for those that have helped me out so far and those who are continuing all the time to help me. I hope someday i will be in a position to help others out like I have been helped.

Visiting Dad

So on Friday Greg was SUPPOSED to come get the girls. No show. We sat around all morning waiting. So I call him when he was supposed to be there no answer an hour later he calls and says o he isn't coming. (Thanks jerk!!) His mom calls later about coming getting the girls Saturday at noon. ok. Tell my sister who is babysitting for me that I will call an hour before she get there so The kids could be at the house. Well at noon she calls and says o she might not come. It's too hard to get up that early. NOON is too early. Well she does live in Tooele so she would have to leave Tooele at about 10:45 to be there at noon. Man that is just too early! So she did finally show up at 3:30. Man. The life of a retired person is just too hard.

I am so glad I only have to deal with the insanity on occasion instead of all the time like I used to. Still too much!!!

Kid humor

Arien runs in the house screaming "Mom, I think. I think. I think. I think." Since she tends to sorda studder I thought there was going to be more to this. So I say "O ya you think about what?"
She says "Augggh (clearly annoyed because she knows I don't understand and yes she act like a teenager already) I think."
Well stupid mom. She thinks don't you know that. lol

Regrets

I have been through a lot this last few months, but wouldn't change it for anything. I am a stronger person and getting stronger everyday. No matter what life throws at me I can not be broken.

Bathroom

Well Arien has learned to lock herself in the bathroom. So when she gets introuble or needs to hide she runs in the bathroom and locks herself in. Well we stayed the weekend over at my moms. She had locked herself in. Well everyone was at church. She was screaming that she was hurting and bawling. for only about 30 mins. I couldn't figure out how to unlock the door. Well I call my sister up and she says she will be there in five minutes. I figured out how to unlock the door as she pulled up. Arien was white. She put lotion all over her body (she has really bad excema and can't put lotion on it. It hurts her so thats why she was crying.)

Collin was so upset that he came to save the day and I already saved the day.

Then of course Grandpa says after he is all calmed down. I am glad you came to save the day. And starts collin all up again.
What a cutie huh?!?!

Mischief.

Arien is always up to something. I wrapped all the presents from me and greg and put them under our tree and Arien goes mommy I got presents and had opened up two of them. She was so excited. haha.